... and I find myself trapped between boredom and a lack of motivation to do anything. Video games don't hold my interest for more than a couple minutes until they turn dull and I return to staring at the screen, waiting for something.
Waiting for what though? For a miracle cure to everything that ails me or for some spark of genius thats going to revolutionize my mental landscape ... like a miracle cure.
Given that no miracle cure actually exists all that's left to do is to wait for meds and therapy to take effect and given that - while my meds are moderately well adjusted - I haven't found a therapist yet I'm stuck with ... this.
Inspiration comes slow today... the only thing that keeps me writing is the faint hope that I'll feel better once I get "it" off my chest. Or maybe there is nothing to get out anyway, maybe the simple act of sharing whatever I think up is enough to calm me down. I don't know, I'll need to perform some more testing ie. blog some more...
Maybe I'll add to this post when inspiration strikes later this night (if it does) but right now I need a smoke. cya
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