09 March 2010
I had a baby and everythings going pretty good. Except the father came back into my life. Everything was going pretty good. I told him I didn't want a relationship with him because I was really hurt the last time and he didn't treat me very well. He basicly moved in and we were getting along great. He was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and started taking medication. It worked great. Usually it takes trials of medication to find the right one. How ever lately he's been moody. The other day I said the baby and I were going to my Grams on Wednesday do laundry and hang out. My gram loves spending time with my daughter. The father got mad and said he was going home and not coming back. I was like why? He said that my Gram holds my daughter to much when she's over there and that he has to listen to her wine when she comes back home. I have feelings for the father, but everytime he has a mood swing or wants to move back home, my emotions go out of wake. I get confused, try to understand and fix it. I hate that I do this, but I can't seem to stop. I feel like my emotions are a rollarcoaster. I feel terrible and hurt when ever he has a mood change(anger) or wants to leave. Now I'm hurt because he doesn't want my Gram to take care of my daughter. I love my Gram and she would be really hurt if she couldn't take my daughter. I also want to make the father happy to. I don't know why, he's nice most the time, but those times when he pulls his stuff makes it almost not worth it.