Tears and Rain!

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19 July 2014

Weight Issues

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Published on July 19th, 2014 @ 10:56:03 pm, using 82 words, 4736 views
Categories: General

I'm obese and would like to loose weight. It's been a challenge for me. Today I realized that I eat when I'm bored and lonely. Not just anything satisfies my urge to eat. It has to be something fattening, fried or/and greasy. I eat more then I should. Afterwards I feel so much better. Relaxed and good. Almost like having an orgasm during sex. Afterwards you feel so complete. I know it probable sounds weird but I wanted to share it.

21 September 2013

Daily Hell

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Published on September 21st, 2013 @ 08:09:23 pm, using 147 words, 16883 views
Categories: General

I feel like I'm going crazy. My daughter won't do anything I want her to and she has throwing, hitting, kicking, biting, swearing tantrums at least three times a day, each lasting ten minutes. I can't understand what I'm doing wrong or why she's acting this way towards me. Her father has a bad temper, swears, spanks and even rages sometimes at her. She listens to him. She wants to be with him, play with him (fun one) a lot. It feels like she fights me every day, all day. It's constant. I just don't understand. I cry all the time. I'm frustrated. I've raised my voice, tried time out, taking things away and even spanking her. She mostly laughs at me. I hate this. I love my daughter but often times I feel like curling up into a ball and just crying until there's nothing left.

12 June 2013


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Published on June 12th, 2013 @ 12:26:39 am, using 133 words, 19195 views
Categories: General

I hurt so bad. Broken and torn. Tired of my soul screaming and my tear stained face. The tears flow like rivers. I just want to know and understand why I choose emotionally unavailable, cold, abusive men over and over. I hate them so much. They take a little piece of my strength and my heart everyday. It rips me apart emotionally. There cruel words kill my soul. There cold and uncaring nature leaves me hungry and desperate to feel loved. Just wanting someone to care. Leaving me with questions. What's wrong with me? Why do I keep going out with men like this? Do I like it? No I hate it. But if I hate the way they treat me, than why? Someone tell me. I don't want to be hurt anymore.

08 June 2013


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Published on June 8th, 2013 @ 05:06:47 pm, using 59 words, 3333 views
Categories: General

My heart hurts, the tears running down my face. Wondering why I always fall for for abusive, narcissistic men. I've been in therapy for years, read hundreds of books on the subject, and know what I want. So why would I want this pain over and over. The men that I date don't feel anything inside. Nothing. It's scary

22 January 2012

Close my eyes

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Published on January 22nd, 2012 @ 06:39:23 pm, using 34 words, 1843 views
Categories: General

Feeling more and more down everyday. I feel like I can't do anything. That nothings ever going to get better. I feel like I'm froze in place as the world carries on around me.

Tears and Rain!

I feel like no one understands me, I'm alone and have to hide how I feel!

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