)Feeling more and more down everyday. I feel like I can't do anything. That nothings ever going to get better. I feel like I'm froze in place as the world carries on around me.
)I feel so much anger and hostility, consuming me, out of control. I'm afraid of all my emotions, especially my anger, destructive. When I'm angy I can feel in every part of my body. I've been with a guy for three years and just realized how bad he's treated me. Sometimes I'm sad and than other times I feel angry. Sometimes I wish that he could feel like I feel. Sometimes I'm so angry that I feel I hate him. Most my anger is at myself for putting up with his cheating, lying, bulling, abusive behavior. I always hook up with guys that are the same. Non caring, disrespecting, using, cheating, abusive men. I feel like somethings wrong with me because I've been working on my issues and why I choose the people in my life for years and here I am in another relationship where someones repeatedly hurting me. Still putting up with it. I don't understand. I'll do anything for this guy and he treats me horribly plus he's cheating. Why am I doing this? Why am I putting up with this? I honestly feel stupid and worthless.
)I like to stop feeling this way. I feel depressed and honestly just tired, week, and emotionless. I don't know how to get back up any more.
)I feel like an emotional wreck. The crying, nervousness, irritation, snappiness, and the endless thoughts. I ask for very little from my bf. A little time everyday with me and little time with me and our daughter everyday. What's so wrong with family meals? or watching tv together? or putting his arm around me when I'm crying to let me know he's there, he understands? Something, anything. Now he sleeps for 12 to 15 hours everyday, hangs around for 20 min.-1hr and than runs off to his friends house to hang out. I feel unwanted, uncared about, unlovable and ugly. He doesn't spend anytime with me and show any feelings, concern for me at all. He spends maybe 20 mins.-40mins. with our daughter. He thinks of me when he goes to the store. He'll ask if I want anything or he'll pick me up my favorite drink, but no intimacy. He's not a very nice guy to begin with. He has mistreated (abusive) me in the past. So why do I feel like I'm on an emotional rollarcoaster? Why do I feel like my emotions are attached to him? I'm fine some days and a wreck other days. It feels like the lifes being sucked out of me everytime I get emotional upset
)I breathe in and out, tears roll down my face, I try to control them, it's like a dam has broken inside me. Can't someone just hold me and tell me everything's going to be ok, that life is worth living, that it's going to get better. The only thing keeping me here is my daughter. Who would take care of her in this world full of liers, self esteem takers and cheaters, abusers, alcoholics, ect
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